I have a lesson tomorrow. Need to focus on that. Not this. But I guess I'm just nervous. I know I shouldn't be. I'm told I have a voice - a real voice, not just a wannabe's voice. I don't hear it yet. I just know I feel good when I sing and that people are happy when I do. I love singing for the seniors in nursing/retirement homes. They're so appreciative - and despite what some say, they don't just want to hear the stuff they already know - they welcome new things too. The more you expose yourself to new music, the better your brain becomes. More people need to hear that little tidbit. Well, I'll try this again later. (Later, when is later.........)

I guess I'm just frustrated with auditions lately. I got sick going down to NYC for the last audition, so I had to postpone and ended up dumping a load of money to stay in NYC till the audition. If I had gone when I was supposed to, I probably would have been called back. I'm so mad at myself. I need to get this weight off, stay healthy and sleep decent hours as much as possible. I must really be in to self sabotoge. Sigh. All I want to do is sing.